Song Of The Moment -Coldplay - Life In Technicolor.. Coldplay Binging right now, heres another one of those building up songs.. GOD i love it

Anooother glorious night here in Sydney, slightly misty but clear skies, bright full moon, stars shining bright and a nice cold breeeze. And i'm here at home? Whyy am i at home, i could be outside of my home, dancing at a club, listening to music and just having fun. But why'd i choose to stay here? Really, why did i stay.. im asking myself the hell is wrong with me. I could have easily gone, dressed up and had fun. But... the problem of the moolah! Damnit money is the root of all evil.And another problem.. im SICK! Or sore throat with the sniffles, whichever. Its ironic though im sick from going to the gym, A place to make me fit and healthy (psht like i had to explain it). I didn't want to risk it getting worse.. AAND i just sneezed. Buut yes, sorry i couldn't come out Zain i really did want to come though =(. I let you down, i let Burcin down (She even offered to pay) and i've let myself down.. I'm now subject to watching friday night footy at home .. like every other night.. what a poor potato sack i am. Sorry y'all..

But myess, sorry for being all moody bad like. I just thought to myself before.. how much fun i had going last time, and how this time i cant go and i've said no. And i feel like i've been saying alot of that 2 letter pessimistic word lately. Awhile ago my buddy Matt asked me to come jogging and rowing, i denied.. Stephan, Will and Rich asked me to go watch Public Enemies.. Sorry guys.. My mum asked if i wanted to sleep.. i said nah mate.. and a website asked me if i'd like hot sex in mascot.. i said no... So SEE! I say No, waayyy too much and just end up doing what im doing right now.. sitting my comfortable ass on this chair and looking up meaningless stuff on the internet, cause im capped. Its no fun. I think i'll be inspired by that movie Yes, Man once i get around to watching it. Plus Jim Carrey's born on the 17th of January.. Like ME! So theres a connection and another reason i have to watch the movie. But back to the point, i live a majority of my spare time sheltered away from the world and playing it "safe" in the comfort of my own home. Where i know whats on the other side of the door, i know where everything is. I don't think its healthy, and i don't enjoy it.. it gets boring. So im sitting here, another, Friday night of nothing. And its un-eventful, not productive and just plain. It's not just going out, its just being so stationary is bad. I'm a young 18 year old sexy beast, i should show the world what i've got right? The other day it, It didn't hit me when i saw it but now that i think of it, I saw this quote while switching through channels on another of my boring home days.

"If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything is ready, we shall never begin."

I keep saying im bored of Sydney and want to get out and see the world, it wont happen if i wont even leave my home. Plus theres parts of Sydney i don't even know about, why should i venture out to the unknown when im not even familiar with my backyard. I'm not saying that.. after this post im going to go bungee jumping, going out and be a rebel and just be plain old crazy. I'm writing this entry as a reminder of how i feel at this moment. This moment of.. how should i say.. a state of regret? Realization? I don't know, maybe im just buggered and semi depressed.. Oh well. Future me, if your ever reading this.. you better have had done something crazy by then.. or else i'll jump the time vortex and kick your ass.

Hmm.. i should be out there, Next time... eh? Oh well, Peace out.. im just a party pooper at the moment, and you peepz out there may disagree with the way im feeling. Well.. Fight Me =P Byyye, i feel like posting again soon tho